Waiting

  Waiting is all about assumption and hurt. Its hard and tiring.

Let Me Give Your Heart a Break

Assalamualaikum,
   I just ended the count of the year that I started to keep it all by myself, confessed to you that I like you eventhough it's indirect but sure its okay than keep holding on by myself. Though, actually I think I might be crazy or insane because I'm actually don't know where did I found that courage and strength to tell you all of this. But I think it's not a wrong thing to do, because for almost three years I've never opened up the door for anyone but it's you who finally knock it and I slowly let you in. Though you just said "I'm still not ready" or I take it as rejection for me, its okay because at least all have become crystal clear now.. And I'll wait, just so you know, when you're ready, I'll be here, patiently waiting.. Doesn't matter what might be in the future, I'll stand here at the same spot where you left me, I won't go anywhere, and it doesn't matter if I have to wait for another two years because its you that I'm waiting for.. I won't ask for anything anymore because I don't need anything, I just need you to at least take a glance at me.. Its okay, take your time, I'll give your heart a break.

Letter in the Bottle to Mr. Unreadable

Assalamualaikum and Haeip!
Mr. Unreadable, okay hari ni tetiba rasa macam nak buat entry pasal awak, kenapa? Sebab kita geram, sakit hati, benci, rasa nak pukul awak sampai awak perasan kita! Boleh ke macam tu? Why not because nothing kat atas dunia ni impossible if you say possible to the impossible.. Tahu tak? This is the most berani entry tahap sanggup terjun bangunan tingkat lima belas.. To post this, I've gathered all my strength! Why can't you see that?
Mr. Unreadable, kita nak tanya awak, why can't you see me eh? I'm standing right in front of you and showing the obviousness yang kita suka awak and you just passed through me, just like that.. Just like I'm invincible to you.. Tahu x it hurts! And don't you know, I've been falling for you for almost two years! And I've tried to find at least one single valid reason for me not to fall for you and here it goes that I couldn't..
Because you're so unreadable and unpredictable and un-sangka-rable, it makes me fall way harder than before. Can you at least show me some clues, like if you just wanna be my friend then don't give me a hope, because of that hope I'm still holding on until today. In case you're afraid to approach me because you might think that I actually already belong to someone else, lets just get this one thing straight. I'm absolutely single! And it's not like I don't want to smile at you when your eyes meet mine but I'm just too flatter to do that, you should have knew you give me so much butterfly until my belly is about to explode..
This entry macam desperate housewife kan? Kenapa, sebab I don't want that two years become three years and then four years and keep adding.. I just want the kepastian, at least show me kalau you absolutely has no feeling towards me, then I can just back off, stop hoping, stop all the awkwardness, stop all the weird conversation, stop staring at you, stop admiring your smile, stop admiring at your perfection, stop hoping for you to smile at me, stop stalking every social networks you have, and knock it all off. And I just can live like I always be, and I can just stop being so fool. And even if I fall that hard pon, I'm still not too late to pull my parachute and land safely at the ground, I don't want to just fall hard and wait until I crush on the ground and broke into pieces..

Me

Assalamualaikum and haeip!

See that topic? What does it say? Me isn't it? Yeah, this post is about me babeh!

Nor Ain Elias, minah bajet, sombong, poyo, bajet semua nak usha dia and architect in the making and future architect, InsyaAllah.

 Lets get some quick briefs about me. I'm often a very talkative and usually I'm easy to approach but what did I heard alot now? 

"Sombong laa Ain ni "

"Jual mahal sangat etep"

"Don't try to play hard to get sangat nati xlaku"

But among all, I like the last one the best. Dude! Just lets get this one thing straight okay. Bukan sombong okay, and bukan ego dan bukan juga pride, its so called malu or shy shy cat! Wei, lets take you as an example, kalau ko, takkan laa ko nak senyum dekat lelaki yang ko tak pernah kenal and cakap sesuka hati. Aku takut kang aku senyum dikatanya aku nak usha dia. Masak aku, so play safe, tak payah senyum and tak payah jeling, just keep it cool and buat muka bajet model gincu.

Ni satu lagi tang yang jual mahal and play hard to get ni, wei, aku pompuan kot, hang ingat laki ka? Kalo aku play easy to get, tak mencabar laa. Bukan jual mahal ye, its called a standard, since the last relationship, I told myself that, I don't want to be involve in some kind of 'wasting time' relationship, I want a relationship that can last forever, so to find someone to be through that forever, you've got to find the better one, and to have a better one, you need to put some standard before choosing. Takkan nak kawin dengan orang tak menjamin future? Orang makan nasik, aku? Ade gak yang makan penumbuk hari hari. That's so scary man.

Paling paling tak pon nak calon macam ni. Minum darah pon tak kisah, I sanggup!

Tetiba letak gambo ni, sebab nak cakap, aku suka gila dengan diaorang ni, sumpah sweet tahap nak kutuk diri sendiri sebab tak de pakwe nak sesuwit.

Yang part sombong memang tak boleh blaa okay, tapi aku often dengar orang cakap macam ni kat aku 

 "Ain ni mula mula kenal macam sombong gila, tengok orang pon tak senyum, tapi bila dah kenal, brutal gila"

Nah kat sini nak cakap, don't judge me upon my first impression on you honkay, sebab apa? I ni pemalu, kalau dengan orang tak kenal, ketaq lutut nak tegur, bukan aku malu, takut, takut orang cakap macam macam. I'm the type of person yang selalu pikir apa orang cakap kalau aku yang start buat sesuatu dulu. Once you've known me, I'm the type of yang suka gelak outloud, menyakat orang, buat sesuatu ikut suka hati je and paling penting outspoken! Time tu confirm ko cakap aku dulu bajet pemalu gila.

Once da kenal, ni laa aku, suka camhore tak kira tempat, tudung selalu macam kena puting beliung, tak kisah ape orang kata, tak suka ambik tahu hal orang tahap masuk kelas archi semua orang aku tak kenal pastu mula gelabah sensorang dan awkward gilerzzz sampai sekarang.

Suka gelak tahap tak ingat dunia sampai selalu kena serangan tegang urat pipi and perut tahap sikit lagi nak tercabut.

Okay thats sedikit and sebanyak about me, so, please, don't judge me before you know me okay, its like you tak kenal aku tapi you talk like you know me for a century, it can be fitnah honkay kalau tak betul, ingat tak apa dosa fitnah yang ustazah ajar ko sekolah dulu time belajar PAI? Daripada ko fitnah aku, baik ko ambik pisau potong model aku, bunuh je aku. *ayat over of course Ain*

Nah, quote of the day. Sila baca dan pahami

K I leave it here. Thank you!

Song Speaks The Unspoken Words

 Assalamualaikum and Haiep all.

 Too busy too write all I wanted to spout, but some said, when the word can't speak what your heart wanted to say, just let the song speaks because it'll deliver something deeper than the mouth can. So! I present to you a nice song to listen, enjoy!

"Battle Scars" (feat. Lupe Fiasco)

[Intro: Lupe Fiasco]
Hope the wound heals but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
You're at war with love, yeah
[Hook: Guy Sebastian]
These battle scars don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle...
[Verse 1: Lupe Fiasco]
Never let a wound ruin me
But I feel like ruin's wooing me
Arrow holes, they never close from Cupid on a shooting spree
Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me
But when you're trying to beat the odds up
Been trying to keep your nods up
And you know that you should know
And let her go
But the fear of the unknown
Holding another lover strong
Sends you back into the zone
With no Tom Hanks to bring you home
A lover not a fighter
On the front line with a poem
Trying to write yourself a rifle
Maybe sharpen up a stone
To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone
[Pre-hook: Guy Sebastian]
I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched
I wish that I could stop loving you so much
Cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over
[Hook: Guy Sebastian]
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle...
[Verse 2: Lupe Fiasco]
(Then just leave)
You shouldn't have but you said it
(And I hope you never come back)
It shouldn't have happened but you let it
Now you're down on the ground screaming medic
The only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses
Shields, body armors and vests don't properly work
That's why you're in a locker full of hurt
The enemy within and all the fires from your friends
The best medicine is to probably just let it win
[Pre-hook: Guy Sebastian]
I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love
I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much
And I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over
[Hook: Guy Sebastian]
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle...
[Bridge: Guy Sebastian & Lupe Fiasco]
Cause you've set me on fire
I've never felt so alive, yeah
Hoping wounds heal, but it never does
That's because you're at war with love
And I'm at the point of breaking
And it's impossible to shake it
See, you hoped the wound heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
Hope it heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love!
[Hook: Guy Sebastian]
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle... 

 Lyrics from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/guysebastian/battlescars.html , thanks. 

Bubye!! 

Just A liltle Bit More to yeayyyyyyy!!!!!!!!

 Assalamualikum! and Haiep! 

Okay aku ada big and happiest news buat masa sekarang, nak tahu ape? Cerita dia macam ni, aku dah submitted Final Project aku!! Okay tahu mesti nak cakap tak big news pon, bagi korang laa, bagi aku memang berita paling happy kat alam semesta laa, sebab apa? Maksud dia, lepas ni aku cuti 3 bulan, 3 bulan tu wei, lama kot, apa pon boleh jadi, ntah-ntah, dah pregnant 3 bulan dah aku, tukannnn! cita-cita tu memang menggunung laa, kahwin pon x. 

Lepas ni kan wei, aku dah tak payah potong board dah wei, dah tak yah nak sketch bagaidaha, tak yah warna-warni aidilfitri saling bermaafan sanak saudara jangan dilupakan bagai dah, tak yah nak buat plan laa, elevation laa, tangan pon tak penuh dengan 3 second dah, paling penting! aku boleh tido awal!!! golek-golek atas katil sambil mimpi encik Kyu Hyun, yeay!! huu, tido adalah benda paling nikmat sekali buat budak archi tahu, aku kalau tido tu boleh beli kat kedai mamak, confirm, aku borong semua, xtinggal satu pon kat orang lain. confirm!! ceritanya sekarang, entry aku memang tak de pape, nak cakap aku dah nak habis dah. tu je.

tadaaaaaa!! Studiomates aku, semua tomei-tomei and handcem-handcem!  Setahun ni, muka ni laa aku hadap everyday, ade time pecah perut aku dibuat diorang, ade time, nak jugak pecah muka diorang aku buat.

Ya Allah, lepas setahun strunggle dengan GC and ED, akhirnya sampai jugak hujung dia, tapi sebenarnya, baru submit je, belum dapat mark lagi, bukan setakat mark, portfolio dengan streamlining pon tak habis lagi. Lepas ni, degree pulak, lagi susah. -___- 

tetiba rasa sedih balik... waaaaa! T_____T tapi Alhamdulillah, sem ni aku belajar banyak benda, from sketching to mewarna to making model. Orang cakap from zero laa aku ni to hero, tapi tunggu sebentarrrrr belum jadi hero lagi. Part paling menguji ketoughan aku was mewarna, but Alhamdulillah, I managed to get through this. Well, that's why there's proverb say "Where there's a will, there's a way". Tapi seriously said, sometimes tu aku rasa nak give up je! Tapi I'm never, whyyy??? Because giving up is only for those who have no faith in herself. I have one, so I'm never gonna give up without fights!!

Pape pon, gua dah nak graduate from cfsiium woiii! woii orang kampung!! dengar x ni?? gua dah nak habis dah woi!! Sila text, whatsapp, weechat, viber, tweet, post Fb ucap congrats kat gua, okay ini ayat desperadooo.. semua sila boooo Nor Ain Elias!!

My bros! Okay maksud aku lecturers aku, yang baju putih LR. Bro Sam  in charge of GC and yang baju hitam, Bro Rizal in charge of ED. Kenapa muka aku bulat macam tepung gomok tu, aku pon tak tahu. Terima je laa aku memang buruk. -____-

Ieda!!! My bestfriend, the one yang in charge in melayan aku punya kegilaan, nonesenseness, the one yang always be  by my side in getting through all this. A big thanks to her, like alot!

Harith and Ani, my bestfriend too! Also in charge in melayan aku punya kegilaan, kemengarutan, kegedikan, and always offer me their hands when I'm about to fall down. Alot of thanks guys!

tadaaaaaaaa! Me! A big thanks to me, myself because cooperate well for those difficult times I face, and for having a patient till now. Sila lempang saya lelaju ye semua.. Well dude, sometimes, ko kena ucap thanks to diri sendiri jugak tahu, for me, it's just like some kind of appreciation. Well, kite kena learn to appreciate diri sendiri dulu before orang lain k, kalau diri sendiri pon tak tahu nak appreciate, orang lain apatah lagi.

Okay till here, goody goody bye!!!!!!!! Gua nak graduate dah woi!!! 

Let the Song Speaks...

Assalamualikum and haeip! Okay pengumumam-pengumumam, hari ni wa malas nak menulis, so wa kasi satu lirik lagu kat you olls and lets just sing outloud together, tapi takmo menyanyi kat bilik air ek, takmo takmo takmo. Kenapa takmo? Sebab aku dah bosan dengar penyanyi-penyanyi bilik air kat sini buat concert time shower, sumpah bising and tak sedak. Pape pon, kita nyanyi duluuuuu

Mirror
(Lil Wayne feat. Bruno Mars)

[Lil Wayne:]
With everything happening today
You don't know whether you're coming or going
But you think that you're on your way
Life lined up on the mirror don't blow it
Look at me when I'm talking to you
You looking at me but I'm looking through you
I see the blood in your eyes
I see the love in disguise
I see the pain hidden in your pride
I see you're not satisfied
And I don't see nobody else
I see myself I'm looking at the

[Bruno Mars:]
Mirror on the wall, here we are again
Through my rise and fall
You've been my only friend
You told me that they can understand the man I am
So why are we here talkin' to each other again?

[Lil Wayne:]
Uh, I see the truth in your lies
I see nobody by your side
But I'm with you when you are all alone
And you correct me when I'm looking wrong
I see the guilt beneath the shame
I see your soul through your window pane
I see the scars that remain
I see you Wayne, I'm looking at the...

[Bruno Mars:]
Mirror on the wall, here we are again ([Wayne:] Yeah)
Through my rise and fall ([Wayne:] Uh-Huh)
You've been my only friend ([Wayne:] my only friend)
You told me that they can understand the man I am ([Wayne:] they can understand)
So why are we here ([Wayne:] misunderstood) talkin' to each other again?

[Lil Wayne:]
Looking at me now I can see my past
Damn I look just like my fucking dad
Light it up, that's smoke in mirrors
I even look good in the broken mirror
I see my momma smile that's a blessing
I see the change, I see the message
And no message could've been any clearer
So I'm startin' with the man in the...

[Bruno Mars:]
Mirror on the wall,

[Lil Wayne:]
MJ taught me that.

[Bruno Mars:]
Here we are again
Through my rise and fall
You've been my only friend

[Lil Wayne:]
Take 'em to Mars man

[Bruno Mars:]
You told me that they can understand the man I am
So why are we talkin' to each other again?

[Lil Wayne:]
Uh...

Mirror on the wall, here we are again ([Wayne:] yeah)
Through my rise and fall
You've been my only friend ([Wayne:] Any questions?)
You told me that they can ([Wayne:] I come to you) understand the man I am ([Wayne:] You always have the answer)
So why are we here talkin' to each other again?

[Bruno Mars:]
Mirror on the wall.

[Wayne:]
Ay, B.P.
Looks like I did take 'em to Mars this time

[Bruno Mars:]
(So why are we talking to each other again?)

Lyric from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/lilwayne/mirror.html . Btw, penat okay nak google benda alah ni, nak taip sendiri lyric dia, aku macam doubt je dengan diri sendiri and level of aku punya english. So, buat ape nak malukan diri sendiri and penatkan tangan yang baru lepas kena inject HPV ni, btw ( sakit doe kena inject!!!!!!!! Nasib baik aku xnangis!)

Btw, I love this song! 

Lets Doodling

  Assalamualaikum and haiep! *lelambai sambil lelompat bintang* Yeah! Obviously, lama gila aku xupdate blog since last October 2012 *sesapu debu dekat blog sambil kutip dedaun kering*. Aku rasa kalau blog aku ni rumah, memang penuh dengan sawang lelabah la blog ni, pokok pokok climbing tu penuh dekat dinding, entah-entah boleh jadi haunted house entah, penuh dengan vampire buat sarang lepak sambil party darah kat sini. *saja guna vampire, sebab nak nampak cool sikit, haha, kalau guna pontianak, aku punya bulu roma pon meremang, scary doe* Tapi kalo Stefan Salvatore ke, Tyler Lockwood ke yang lepak kat sini memang aku xkisah, siap mengalu alukan lagi. Macam, datang laa blog saya, party tonight, we're having virgin blood party. Stefan Salvatore kot, siapa xsuka dia confirm dia completely blind, buta sebuta butanya wa cakap lu. Argh, tetiba rasa nak tengok Vampire Diaries balik, start from season 1 episode 1 balik.

Haa! tu laa Stefan Salvatore! sekarang lu cakap kat wa, Sumpah handsome ke sumpah xhandsome?  Sumpah aku jealous dengan Elena sebab Stefan love her even she doesn't have that kinda feeling tolo Stefan anymore. Waa sedih!!

Kenapa ade gambar Encik Kyu Hyun? Sebab wa nak cakap, handsome macam mana pon Stefan, Kyu Hyun tetap di hati  gua. And kalau wa dapat dia, last thing wa akan buat ialah curang! Never okay!

     Panjang je aku mengarut, sumpah lama gila xupdate blog, rasa awkward nak menulis tu ada laa, awkward kau, kau hado, macam malu pon ada. *sorok muka dalam sarung bantal*. Emmm, tittew sebenarnya xtahu nak update apa sebenarnya, tapi nak update blog, tapi xtahu nak tulis ape, tapi nak jugak update blog. Okay, nak cerita jugak pape pon asalkan terupdate jugak blog ni, xkisah laa apa aku nak mengarut, bukan ada orang baca pon, end up aku jugak yang baca. Okay jom mengarut. 

  Jom dengar cerita sedih aku. Reason kenapa jarang update blog is, first sebab aku malas, second sebab aku busy and third sebab masa lapang aku selalu aku guna untuk tido. First, aku memang pemalas, like seriously pemalas, sumpah xtipu *sambil buat muka serious and goyang kaki makan super ring* nampak x pemalas tu. Tahu makan and tido jer, dah macam garfield dah bezanya, aku kurus, garfield gemok and aku comel, garfield cute. Malas xmalas aku ni, macam sekarang laa, kerja bertimbun tapi aku sempat je update blog.

Nampak x betapa malasnya aku! Buat gc sambil tampung dagu. So Nor Ain Elias. 

  Second sebab busy, meh sini wa cakap kat lu betapa busynya wa, kadang-kadang satu hari xmandi and xtido, tahu kenapa? Sebab wa busy potong board buat model and buat presentation board lepas tu habis tu nak layan movie plak. Tu belom masuk gombak lagi tu. Kalo pi gombak entah-entah seminggu xmandi, sumpah kalo aku macam tu, aku xnak jadi Nor Ain Elias, aku sanggup buat surgery pindah soul pergi badan lain. 

Ni laa first project yang kena potong board and projek aku sumpah xlawa and simple. Okay down!

Project GC, wuuu bangga aku dapat mewarna cenggini! First time tuuu, dah laa pakai pastel kot! Sumpah susah! Aku dah memang xnak sentuh pastel dag pasni.

   Dah, aku dah malas dah nak mengarut, see! Malas tu dah datang dah. Okay I'm better out now, ini semua lagho laa ni. Haish, bila laa budak Ain ni nak berubah, next year nak kawin da. Ehhh, betul ke tu? Wait and see. Kalo xkawin, jangan nak pepandai sound aku kat twitter ek, jodoh tu ditangan Allah, aku cakap je. 
  Okay, keep supporting me. *go go Ain!! go go Ain!! go go Ain!! gooooooo Ainnnnnn!* Sumpah sadis hidup wa, pom-pom tuk diri sendiri, forever lonely. * terjun bangunan*

Cuba teka siapa?! Yeah! Me again! Kenapa ade gambar ni, sebab ni blog aku, xkan aku nak letak gambar unta kot.

  Okay bye! ^___________^